In My Wildest Dreams EP

by Caitlin Stubbs

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This EP is a mix of both old and new songs. I decided to take a new approach to recording this one by setting a loose deadline of a couple of days to get the recordings done in order to keep the feeling alive within the songs.

I arranged to spend a long weekend with Mr Frankie Harper in his parents' summerhouse in their garden...it acted as a more than sufficient studio and we managed to get most of "In This Land" and "Dénouement" (the two more challenging tracks) recorded while we were there.

On the last day we decided to do a live recording of "Jonny" just as the torrential rain began pounding onto the roof of the little wooden house...I wonder if you can hear it! Jonny was one of the first songs I ever wrote and was inspired by my dad who has worked incredibly hard for the whole of my life (and probably before I was born but possibly not...I wouldn't know) and is the most kind, selfless person I have ever known. I had never made a proper recording of this song and so I decided to put it on this EP. I did transpose it down a tone though due to the fact that my voice was evidently much higher when I wrote it at the tender age of 14..!

credits

released December 31, 2013

Frankie Harper - An absolute endless talent and invaluable friend. Music is as natural an instinct to you as breathing and I will be eternally thankful for your involvement in all this and all the energy you voluntarily put into these songs.

Harry and Sarah Harper - Thank you for being such lovely, generous people and for ferrying us around and feeding me...all for the payment of a portion of "Reduced" M&S Kippers.

Louie Syred - Your passion and confidence combined with your incredible flair for language and lyric-writing never ceases to amaze me. I remember you asking me if you could write a verse for "In This Land" soon after I first met you and we could never work out when would be a good time to use it...and here we are! Thank you for being so supportive of everything I do.

Dad - I love you and thank you for being you.

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Caitlin Stubbs Brighton, UK

Caitlin Stubbs is a singer/songwriter from the little seaside bubble-town of Brighton. She is inspired by all things truthful, beautiful and human. Caitlin writes songs of humanity and nature for the whole world to hear and identify with.

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Track Name: Dénouement
I know I’ve never been
So sure of anything
Always kept my heart on a string
Untied, so liberated
I’ve tried to maintain this state of mind
Always set my sights too high

And in my wildest dreams
I’ve found a sense of peace
I know it’s hard to believe
And in my darkest nightmares
I’ve found a sense of what it’s like not
To be scared, oh

Take your own advice
But listen to the wind
When it whispers gently in your ear
“This is freedom, come join in”

Because your life is in your hands
And whatever tomorrow brings
Is just a canvas for you to paint upon
You can listen or you can sing

In my wildest dreams
I’ve found a sense of peace
I know it’s hard to believe
And in my darkest nightmares
I’ve found a sense of what it’s like not
To be scared, oh

A feeling of fear will get you nowhere
But revealing a tear to someone who cares
Will be enough to drown it out, drown it out

In my wildest dreams
I’ve found a sense of peace
I know it’s hard to believe
And in my darkest nightmares
I’ve found a sense of what it’s like not
To be scared, oh
Track Name: Jonny
This guy sits in his office working nine 'til seven
This guy sits in his office working nine 'til seven
He has a wife and kids; a family
And all he ever wishes is to be with them

He wishes on stars and on birthday candles,
He wishes on eyelashes, gets into lucky superstition
All in the hope

Jonny makes the money but doesn't get paid in the way that he wants to
He wants to be with them, wants to watch his babies grow older
Jonny makes the money but still isn't satisfied
He wants to be by their sides, all the time

This guy sits in his office working nine 'til seven
This guy sits in his office working nine 'til seven
He takes photographs and puts them on his desk
Just to remind him of their faces

He takes keyrings and items of his family's
Just to help him to feel at home
But it still isn't home

Jonny makes the money but doesn't get paid in the way that he wants to
He wants to be with them, wants to watch his babies grow older
Jonny makes the money but still isn't satisfied
He wants to be by their sides, all the time

Jonny decides to take the day off
And another one
And another
And then he retires

Now Jonny takes his kids to university and their work places
He just wishes that he could have done this
When they were younger

Jonny makes no money but now he gets paid in the way that he wants to
Because he is with them, and he's watching his babies grow older
Jonny makes no money but now he is satisfied
Because he is by their sides, all the time
Track Name: Eyes Closed
Even with my eyes closed
I can see the Holy Ghost
And I don't even know
Whether or not I believe

And even with my eyes shut tight
I can see the darkest night
But I can’t even feel
Whether or not it’s real

And even if I am
Standing in the light
I can feel the dark
Upon my skin

And I don’t know
If I am gone
Or I am here

Even when you hold me close
I know it won't last for long
'Cause you aren't always there

Oh and even when you talk this nice
I can see the worst of fights brewing in your eyes
Reminding me that not everything's perfect

And I can be the nicest girl
Open up my little world
For everyone to hear
Even though I have the fear

And I don’t know
If I believe
But I know there's something
Something keeping me

Calmness doesn't grace a fool
Tranquility's a skill after all
Of those who've found themselves

And one day we will make it there
Breathe out all that fearful air we take in all our lives
From the moment we're born to the moment we...

I feel a sudden change in words I can't describe
But it's like my world has opened up and I feel alive
The colours are mine again to do with what I like
The sea, the sky, the trees, the birds, the bees
Track Name: In This Land (ft. Syred)
In this land you can’t choose if you win or if you lose
It’s down to you to decide if you run or if you hide
And in this land if you say what you want, you’re pretentious or ignorant
Self-righteous or naïve

Que sera sera mon cher
On n’a pas le choix

What will be will be my dear
But don’t forget
You have a voice, have a choice
And what we’ve started isn’t finished yet

In this land you can’t choose if you win or if you lose
It’s down to you to decide if you run or if you hide
And in this land you are welcome to vote
For people who corrupt and clean their moats
In this land it’s money that you need
‘Cause who wants love when you’ve got greed

Que sera sera mon cher
On n’a pas le choix

What will be will be my dear but don’t forget
You have a voice, have a choice and what we’ve started isn’t finished yet
What will be will be my dear but don’t forget
You have a voice, have a choice and what we’ve started isn’t finished yet

(Syred):
Will you run or will you fight
Step to the front or will you reside
For in this land a broken man has only one thing to decide
Still only one thing on his mind
That's to find the voice of reason
Find that voice to lead him
Guide his choice and teach him
How to be the man he's seeing
When he's sleeping
'Cause when he's dreaming
That's when his thoughts become his feelings
And he begins to understand the true meaning of his life
And why he was put here on this earth
When so called policies, open economies
Hope for monopolies, what is it worth?
When global equality doesn't come first
Government honesty's stuck in the hearse
They act like they've got feet on the ground but they haven't even touched the dirt
Nor tasted the blood of an african child that's had to drink from stagnant water
To stay alive then later died cause lakes of life provide the poison

What will be will be, my dear
And don't forget
You have a voice, have a choice
And what we've started isn't finished...